March 29th, 2007

Dark God

My Insanity and Death

I've had the opportunity to write about madness in shamanic terms. The topic is comfortable for me because I've felt quite insane myself. My insanity took the form of a death-wish.

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My madness has receded. My lovely mate tells me that I am not really insane. I just sometimes feel that way. Most days I don't feel crazy or even act it. Shoot, crazy is as crazy does. Do I still have a death wish? Yes. I like to believe it has transformed into a comfort with the possibility of passing. Would I have a regret if I were not here tomorrow? I think not. The mad road I've traveled has taught me a lot about death. I'm going to take on a challenge of writing about death. I have an outline I developed several years ago, when my insanity was at it's peak. Was I inspired? Perhaps. Time and more words on paper will tell.