February 21st, 2013

Cat - Black

Dreams as Reality

Dreams are a strange thing. Sometimes they terrorize people, showing them horrific realities that have no right to properly exist. These dreams may omens, but often they are artifacts of anxiety bleeding over to the sleeping time. These nightmares are wisely noted and then ignored.

I have a different dreams. My waking life is pretty dark now. It would be wonderful if a bus found me. My dreams speak of other matters. There are no buses there. I am surrounded by people and we are fairly productive. The clinging depression and dark desires are not present in my dreams. The people in my dreams are strangers as a whole. There are very few familiar faces. Life goes on in my dreams, truly goes on. My waking life is another matter.

so I wonder, what should I take away from these hopeful dreams? Should they be noted and ignored like others' nightmares? Are they a fantasy, or is my sleeping reality showing me how things "really are"? I wonder.
ATHF - Moonnites Rule

Our Buttons

I find human buttons to be an interesting study. My lovely wife and I share buttons impacted by perfection, but the approaches are different.

She takes issue with people who ought to be doing things smarter and better, but aren't. An example, our new house (built in the 60s) has a bathroom door that gets in the way of things when opened. My wife asks, "why didn't they put it over here?". She is really unhappy with the situation. My answer is "you'll have to ask architect of 40 years ago". An issue about relative perfection.

I take issue with forced perfection. I am a photographer, but I don't like overally photoshopped pics. There is a picture on facebook of a kid's head on a bodybuilder's frame. The point is to make you do a double-take and then look at the ad next to the pic. This is deception and lying to me. I say, "find a real person and take a real photo". LOL... again, relative perfection, but I don't like when reality is bent to create the perfection. The irony is that I would be the first person to admit that reality is a matter of choice and personal perception.

I guess that is why they are called button issues - they don't make sense to people without the same buttons.
Goren Guilty

No Monopoloy on Selfishness

A LJ friend wrote about the presence of sadist people in my their life. I said that I only really relate to masochism. I reflected on the difference. My knee-jerk was that sadists (who I don't fully understand) are more narcissistic. Wikipedia defines narcissism as "generalized personality trait characterized by egotism, vanity, conceit or selfishness". This does not ring true with my theory. People who direct pain outward (sadists) are not more conceitful than people who seek to receive pain (masochists). They are not more vain or selfish either. So, what is the difference, other than the direction of the inflicted pain or emotional abuse?