Big Rowan Ackison (greensh) wrote,
Big Rowan Ackison
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Feeling Funcational

I'm am getting a glimpse of what a functional alcoholic / recovering alcoholic may feel like. I've never been one, so I could be completely wrong. One of my basis for comparison is a lady my ex-wife worked with. My wife's co-worker longed for the weekends when getting wasted was on the schedule. My apologies if I get this wrong. The co-worker was distracted during the week, and perhaps struggled with physiological factors that only the alcohol could resolve.

Here is my relating. I long for something I should not attain. Why? It would suck for my overall health and piss others off. Depression adds numbing mental / physical element. So, I am in a situation of craving for a not good thing, while struggling with a limitation that stunts my social skills. I feel so distracted and I'm not living in the moment. IT is an addiction.
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