Big Rowan Ackison (greensh) wrote,
Big Rowan Ackison
greensh

  • Mood:

Poem - Many a Day

One of my incredibly dear friends is on my social media alert feed. While I see their uplifting memes and event notices often, I’ve not spoken to them in too many years. We used to speak every day, and now I am a specter haunting their shadow. I wondered why this was, and the results of my thoughts became the poem “Many a Day”.

Many a Day

It's been many a day
the wheel has turned round
more times than the cat's lives
since we've spoken as pals.
This is my fault
no blame to you friend
for I have a secret
that I'd like to share.

I would speak of my life
in honest discussion
to a person who's seen
my every conveyance.
Yet I find myself unable
to reach out to you
by a wall too imposing
created by fear.

This is the crux of the all matter
that you've heard this all before
and yet here I am again
still in my own hell.
I’m all tied in knots
of shame built on itself
of progress not made
where is my voice.

I once had much promise
doors waiting to open
you saw this power
I’ve failed to provide.
No promises were made
none expected by you
yet a stumble by me
is a slight made to you.

I can put on the mask
for others less close
make brave while I die
I cannot hide from you.
You’ll see me the fraud
broken not growing
this is my dread
I share on this day.

© 2016, Sean Green. All Rights Reserved, 20160608.
Tags: poem, self-esteem
Subscribe

  • Poem - The Wolf at the Door

    A poem about the almost schizophrenic fear people experience in everyday life... The Wolf at the Door The wolf is at the door. Yesterday he was my…

  • Cubs Running

    I just had to share this one...

  • Wolf-Dog Pictures and Videos

    I've been busy both taking pictures and making new videos. The picture sets are almost too big to choose the best, so I'll just leave you with links…

  • Post a new comment

    Error

    default userpic
    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.
  • 0 comments